Day 25: Anhedonia

With one of the second floor walls framed, you can now begin to see the final form and scale of the project. It’s strange and kind of thrilling to see the building this far along, with no major problems. I should be happy and relaxed all the time now. And yet... every morning when I wake up already exhausted, my fingers cramped, I remind myself that this is a unique time in my life, one that my future self will look wistfully back on. No office, no one to answer to, and I get to spend all my days out in the sun working on something I conceived. But all the petty worries associated with construction keep getting in the way of my enjoyment.

For example, Carla’s parents have to head back to Halifax later this week, and Lynette and Simon are leaving too (they’ve already been ridiculously generous in spending over a week with us). This means that we’ll temporarily be without help. Seeing as the roof framing and the sheathing of the second story will be starting up soon, that’s going to make things tough. Carla and I weren’t built to carry all that plywood up two stories alone. Our stick-arms are made for typing, or gently strumming guitars.

On the other hand, I’ve been tentatively offered a position at a good firm in Toronto. I can’t say where, but needless to say this takes a huge weight off my mind. At least my future self will have a job to look wistfully back from.

- Geoff